Switching Gears

Well, we’re not pregnant. But rewind a few weeks, wife and I were discussing our plan should she not be pregnant. I told her I thought that we should switch to IVF if/when the time is right and possibly consider doing reciprocal if they can synch our cycles and do a fresh transfer (as it is unlikely that her lining would be adequate for a fresh transfer). She has been pretty tight lipped about planning for the “in case” future because she found it disheartening, but once we found out how thin her lining is, the reality of IUI working out has started to dim a bit. Add that to certain career opportunities and new responsibilities wife is currently looking at and it’s making more sense. She seemed to give a sigh of relief and even said “now I kinda hope I’m not pregnant” and we did the POAS to confirm it. It was bittersweet.

We’ve been in contact with a clinic in St Louis and have gotten some price points. It’s not pretty, but wife did get a settlement from her bike accident and we’ve put that away for a rainy day. Cue rainy day. It feels kind of weird to be putting so much money towards something with so many question marks, but that’s the nature of this process in general. And honestly if it works out, it’s totally worth it. Money does not even begin to place a value on being moms and creating our family. It is beyond money.

That said, if it doesn’t work out, it will be pretty shitty. I am optimistic that it will work out in one way or another though. Wife seems to make eggs like a champ, just not lining, and I had a really great pregnancy and lactate like a boss. We’ll see what the doc says.

Here’s to the next adventure!


TWW #4

Here we are again! So we’re doing the TWW after what seemed to be a well-timed insemination (one 18mm follicle with trigger 36 hours later). Wife has been struggling with a thin lining (not on clomid) and we cancelled last cycle because it was under 4…this cycle we started tamoxifen which can have a thickening effect on the lining and did a whole regimen of herbs and pomegranate juice and tea and baby aspirin. Lining got almost to a 6….still on the thin side so I am feeling a little pessimistic but trying to be optimistic for wife. Our doctors seem pretty unconcerned which is a little frustrating. We have 2 tries after this before we figure out how to afford IVF and I’m trying not to see this as a foregone conclusion. I would love for this just to work out this cycle. It would be SO nice for it just to work out in an easier and less expensive manner…but I don’t know if that’s how we roll 😂😭 I guess that’s when we just wait and see!

Probably out

Wife’s AF hasn’t showed up, but it’s due sometime today and we’ve had all negative tests so far. Still of course holding onto the thread of hope that we could have a late bloomer or something. But we’ve already been into the doc to get ultrasound cycle-monitoring and ovidrel for next cycle.

So 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

3rd IUI

3rd time’s a charm? We’ll see. Insemination was a little stressful. Our nurse, who we typically love, seemed a little doubting of the wife’s timing, though with Femara, I know I ovulated early and the doc said this was likely. Wife also had great CM. She did have pretty bad “reflux” when we injected the sperm and I worry that none of it got in…ugh. But yeah. I think our timing was great. So staying positive. I have felt really hopeful this time around but am trying to be less optimistic? If that makes any sense.

TWW aaaaand go.

No temp shift?

Wife has been temping this month and we are noticing that she hasn’t had any kind of thermal shift. Her temps are basically a straight line…cue panic and furious googling of “affordable IVF” as if there is such a thing. 

I am just feeling like I can’t do months of IUI again…months of negative pregnancy tests. Months of TWW…

We have zero fertility coverage, but have some $$ from a settlement after wife’s bike accident. We would also be willing to take out a small loan. Considering I would like to carry again, I am leaning heavily towards throwing the towel in on this IUI thing and getting down to business with some IVF. 

Anyone have positive/affordable experiences in the Midwest? 

IUI #2

We had a somewhat surprising/early positive LH surge on day 11 (yesterday) around 3pm so called in before the 3:30 deadline for an insemination the next day (today). T also had a nice dip in temperature this morning. Our favorite nurse, Lois, did the insemination today and met our little one who was conceived in the same clinic and came along with us. It was definitely a family affair! 

Sunday is kind of fun at the clinic. It’s basically closed-down and we were the only people there. Our kiddo was very curious about why her mama was laying on the exam table and snuggled up with her after insemination during the 15 minute lie down.

She inexplicably sang “happy birthday” all morning, which neither of us taught her. We definitely took that as a good sign 😁 Hoping for a little brother or sister soon for this kiddo.